I have a long story, but I’ll try to keep it brief. 🙂

I had a successful life — studied as an Engineer and graduated into a good paying telecommunications job. But almost immediately upon entering the engineering profession, I found myself to be very unhappy. I felt like I was always taking from the world and not giving…yet I so desperately wanted to give.

Like many people I was starting to get comfortable. Even though I didn’t really like my job, I was getting good money, I was starting to get all the ‘stuff’ — apartment, furniture, car — and I had some good friends. But after only 2 years with the company I got laid off.

Although I was terribly upset, I thought it was a good thing.. Because it gave me the opportunity to explore a career that had been bubbling in the back of my mind: teaching ESL in China.

So I got myself ready to go abroad — pretty much immediately after being laid off I “magically” found a position teaching ESL in China — and by December 2001 I was ready to go.

Except I started experiencing severe panic attacks, anxiety and, later, depression. For the 10 years from December 2001 until now I have been fighting severe symptoms of anxiety and depression. For a decade I have worked with all kinds of medical professionals, tried all kinds of therapies and medications, and had some of the most epic internal wars imaginable.

In that decade I traveled around the world, and though I was raised in a small town, I had been living in cities of up to 15 million people (Beijing). My intuition kept telling me — get out of the city, and get out of engineering — but I forced myself to stick it out. I spent 5 years in Vancouver doing a job I hated to my core, just to be secure and safe with money. But I hated everything. I could not find a ray of sunshine to be grateful for.

In June 2010 I made the decision to quit. I decided that it was time to live a life worth living. And when I did that, pieces all began to fall into place.

My wife found a job in my home town, so we were able to relocate to a small town, close to the environment. I got disability leave for a year, so I could take my time volunteering and exploring what makes me happy. And though I didn’t have a “job”, my life started to get so much better.

Then in December 2010 I met an Ontological (‘being’) Life Coach. My coach began to have me look forward… to begin to learn to create the future that I wanted. She helped me to see the possibilities in life…much like what is shared in The Secret. Together we began to create a new possibility for me, and hold it in our minds.

In a few short months I discovered my true purpose in life. And I began my journey to become a Life Coach myself, as a way to fulfill my purpose.

And now I am free from depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I no longer need medication. I no longer need therapy. I was told at one point that there was no cure for anxiety, but thank the Infinite Intelligence that I had healers around me that focused me on the possibility that there IS a way to overcome anxiety!

I still get down, I still get anxious, I still get stressed. I am not earning the income I want… yet! But what I am SO grateful for is:

–an improved relationship with my wife.
–an improved relationship with my mother.
–improved health and well being.
–new friends that never existed to me before.
–incredible teammates who never existed to me before.
–incredible colleagues who never existed to me before.
–a (modest) income from a career that I am so passionate about.
–and finally, after so much searching, a Purpose.

This all came from being around people like the creators and contributors to The Secret — people who understand that you get what you create in your mind first.

Everything I have experienced — both good and bad — was created in my mind first. It took me a long time to figure that out, but I wanted to share my story with you, so that you can see that it’s not all about money… and this is not fake New Age woo-woo mumbo jumbo.

Intention. Possibility. Creating an Impossible Future. The Law of Attraction. This is reality.

I just want to get better at utilizing these principles so I can manifest my financial freedom — to bring even more balance to my life.