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Back from the abyss
Submitted by: Carlos M.
Santa Fe, NMI am a computer tech working for a local telecom company. I like music, mathematics, science, love, and computers. My fiance and my computers are my life.
3 years ago, I was working a dead end job with no prospect of a promotion or a raise. It was tiring, monotonous work. The people who were above me were thankless, and corrupt. At the workplace, there was a sense of impending gloom, and doom. My life outside of work was no better. I was in a dead-end relationship with a hopelessly depressed alcoholic. As a consequence, I was sucked into that same world. I became addicted to cocaine and alcohol. Slowly, but surely, my downward spiral continued to the point where I was contemplating suicide. I hated my partner, and I hated myself. The only out that I could see was death. I had such a huge hole in my soul that no amount of alcohol, drugs, or sex could fill it. I tried so hard to fill that hole that I got to the point where I overdosed on cocaine, and almost died. Finally, I got out of that horrifically co-dependent relationship. I got laid off from my awful job. I thought things would get better, but they didn’t. I continued on the same course. I was still so sad. I couldn’t seem to change the direction that my life was taking.
Then one day, a very good friend of mine told me that there was something I needed to watch. He told me it would change the way I thought about everything. The only thing I could think was, “What a bunch of BS”. But I humoured him, and let him put it on the DVD player. It was The Secret. As I watched, I realized that these were in fact things that I had known because I read many books about science, philosophy, and religion. The Law of Attraction was indeed always at work, and everything I had read had tried to point this basic concept out to me. I just needed to see other people give a voice to the concept.
I knew that I was indeed the master of my reality, and me, and only me, could change it for the better. Utilizing the knowledge that I acquired, I began changes in my life. Little things at first, then the big things, like my chemical dependencies. I stopped drinking and doing cocaine. I got a well paying job doing what I loved. I found the love of my life, and bought a home with her. I got a new car, and I had money. I actually had money!
To this day, I count my blessings, and give my thanks to the power that is. I am truly blessed, and I want everyone to know they too can change their life if they really want to. Only you can shape your reality. Thank you all who made such a life changing film. My life will only continue to get better, and I can never repay the debt I owe Rhonda and The Secret. Life is good, carpe diem, my friends!