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Proof It Works!
Submitted by: Rox.D
London25 year old actress, singer and dancer.
A few years ago my life was heading down a dark path. I hated everything and everybody. I didn’t trust anyone including myself. I had goals and dreams but when I didn’t achieve them I would abuse myself and curse the world for hating me so much. I was caught up in jealousy over other people’s success. I hated them and once again, myself.
It started when I was a child being bullied for my appearance and expressing myself. I was a very creative person growing up and so drama, singing and dancing was a great way to help me be more confident. Years moved on, I got myself into in drama school where I was growing more and more into myself. One day after a performance in a London theater I was beaming with life after working so hard. A few teachers were watching in the audience and all they could do was praise one favorite student, completely dismissing the others. This made me doubt myself. Years later I heard about the success of this student and how well they were doing and how much money they are making and living their dream. This brought back my feelings of failure. I would rip out my hair, cut my skin, have mood swings towards loved ones and do things I shouldn’t do. I heard voices in my head telling me I wasn’t worth of anything, I should just give up. This happened over a good five years.
Then one day I had enough. I was sick of hurting myself and others around me. I needed help. I meet a man about a year and half ago who changed everything for me. We started dating, then going out. I would talk to him about how I would feel, he could see that I was looking for a way out of the dark. He introduced me to The Secret one evening. I was unsure about it, but decided to give it a go as nothing else was working. It took a while to get into it, but then the magic happened.
I started with something small, like a coffee. I was on a train heading back home when I imagined that I was drinking a warm coffee, I also thought “wouldn’t it be nice to be picked up straight away?” The train pulled into the station and to my amazement there was my boyfriend with two coffees in his hand. I jumped with laughter and asked how did he know? He replied “I just thought it would be nice and the car is just outside.” I said “this is fun, what else can the LOA do?” I thought about a song that I haven’t heard for a long time and a few days later putting on my radio there was the song. Brilliant! What else can it do? And so on, things started to become great! Everything I really, really wanted came about. I pictured it, thanked it and believed in it! And not just little things but life changing things.
What inspired me to write here was recently I auditioned for the lead part in a musical that will be happening this year. Now, I knew lots of people were going up for it. First thing, I got rid of the word competition and thanked the other girls for making me want the part so much because of their great talents. Every night I would see my name in the program next to this character’s name. I thanked myself, my talents and of course, for the part.
Long story short I got! Because I believed. Now there is nothing in my way to stop me achieving my dreams.
Every now and again I have little down moments, but that is quickly changing and being replaced with the feeling of great achievement, passion for what I love and gratefulness for life!
I would also like to thank you for reading my story. Love others and yourself, we only have one life, why not make it a wonderful one!